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Skye & Jax - Picturesque
Homecoming...

September 13, 2002

No pictures, just the transcript is available.

Skye: If I had known that we were going to be hiking, I would've worn more sensible shoes.

Jax: No, we're not hiking.

Skye: Well, no skinny-dipping, either, please. It's kind of chilly tonight.

Jax: You will remain completely dry, I promise. We're staying right here.

Skye: An overturned rowboat?

Jax: That's right. It's to sit on while you and I talk about stuff. Cold?

Skye: Yeah, a little.

Jax: I'll -- I'll get a little fire started.

Skye: Jax, is this all leading to you telling me something I'm not going to like?

Jax: Well, it's -- it's a possibility. See, you and I need to discuss something.

Skye: Always the diplomat.

Jax: This isn't easy, Skye.

Skye: Jax, I have made every mistake in the book -- I know that -- the worst being listening to Grandfather when I should've believed in you. And I -- if you'd just give me a chance to prove to you --

Jax: No, it's not that.

Skye: Good, because that was my all-time low, I'll tell you that.

Jax: It's the fact that you had a drink.

Skye: Oh. That.

Jax: Yeah, you told me that you've been sober for years, going to AA meetings. The day we break up, you have a drink.

Skye: Yes, I did.

Jax: I understand how important your sobriety is to you, Skye. Perhaps this is too private for you to discuss, but we need to talk about it because it affects me, too.

Skye: It does, and you have every right to ask me about it.

Jax: I love you, Skye, but I don't want to be the reason you drink. You've worked so hard to stay sober. I need to know that you're handling it. You know, life has its ups and downs. None of them are predictable. And you managed to -- to stay sober up until the point where -- up until the point where I turned away from you. See, I can't be responsible for you to take that risk again. I understand if you don't have an answer ready, so maybe, you know, just think about it.

Skye: No, I don't have to. I have an answer for you right now.

Jax: Look, I'm not looking for promises that you'll never take a drink again.

Skye: But you need to know that I'm not relying on you to keep me sober.

Jax: I understand if you don't have a clear answer for me.

Skye: But I do, Jax, because it's so simple. I love you, but I love being sober even more. My sobriety isn't dependent on anyone but myself. It's about me alone, about my decisions, how I feel inside, how I choose to live my life. And if I thought for a minute that you would jeopardize my commitment to my sobriety, I couldn't be with you.

Jax: Yeah, but you had a drink right after we broke up.

Skye: I am the one who picked up that drink, ok? No one else is to blame.

Jax: Yeah, but you hit that low because of me.

Skye: Jax -- the things you said to me -- it broke my heart, it's true. But it was about -- it was about everything else getting me to that point, you know -- my anger at my grandfather, my shame at my own behavior. I'm not saying that's an excuse. I'm not. I'm just -- I'm trying to get you to understand what a fine line it is that I walk every day.

Jax: It's been a long time since you've crossed that line.

Skye: And I wasn't going to. When I was walking out of that bar, the Recovery Room, I got up and my shoe broke. The sandal strap came off. And in that moment, I lost my resolve. In that moment, I turned around, I picked up that drink, and I downed it. It was that easy.

Jax: I'm sorry.

Skye: Don't be. I have nobody else to blame but myself. I -- I just got lazy about my AA meetings. I need them. I'd just forgotten how much.

Jax: But you're back now?

Skye: When I was on the run, I went religiously, two, three times a day. It was all I had to hang on to -- just 90 meetings in 90 days. 90 meetings in 90 days. Just don't take a drink today. I guess I'm scaring you, huh?

Jax: No, no, you're helping me understand this.

Skye: Jax, there's a monster that lives inside me, and it's not going to go away, and I can't ever ignore that.

Jax: That sounds like bravery to me.

Skye: I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm just too frozen to move inside, like I'm just afraid to give, to -- to love, to trust. But you've helped me so much.

Jax: I'm not so sure about that.

Skye: No. You make me want to be a better person, to reach for my better self, to pull back when my baser instincts just want to take over. I know it might sound a little odd, but it gives me great faith in myself that I was able to pick a man that's so good for me.

Jax: Well, you know, you're pretty good for me, too.

Skye: No. I don't know. I'm no saint, Jax. I never was, and I never will be.

Jax: Well, I mean, living with a perfect person -- it'd get quite boring after a while.

Skye: I'm glad you feel that way.

Jax: The fact is that I've never admired a woman as much as I admire you.

Skye: "Admired"?

Jax: Yes. I mean, you face a monster every day. You're a savvy businesswoman. You're a survivor of emotional abuse. Well, you're extremely passionate. They're all parts of you, Skye. They're all parts of a woman that I'm falling deeper in love with every day.

Skye: You sure you know what you're getting yourself into?

Jax: You know, perhaps you were right. Perhaps this is one, big test. This happened for a reason. And that reason was so that I could realize what a treasure I have sitting here right in front of me.

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[back home]

Skye: I was so sure it was over between us, that I'd never be with you again.

Jax: Here we are.

Skye: I have a confession to make.

Jax: Yeah, what's that?

Skye: Remember when I finally told you about the contract I signed with Edward and you said that we were finished?

Jax: You said that we weren't.

Skye: I fought so hard to get you not to leave. I begged you to admit that you still love me. But truth is I thought that you were right to leave. In my heart of hearts, I didn't think that I deserved you.

Jax: I have a confession to make, too.

Skye: What's that?

Jax: You know, I was hurt. I was angry with you, with myself. But I never stopped loving you.

Skye: Oh. Oh, my God, Jax. This is a miracle that we're back together. It is. It -- it's just going to take me time to trust it and for you to trust me again.

Jax: That's ok. We've got all the time in the world.

[they make love]

Jax: Welcome home.

Skye: Hmm. I'll disappear more often if I'm guaranteed a homecoming like that.

Jax: No, no, no. I think once -- once was enough.

Skye: I agree.

Jax: You seem happy.

Skye: Oh, Jax, I feel like -- I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The burden is gone. No more lies or secrets or hidden agendas.

Jax: No more threats hanging over your head.

Skye: I can be completely honest with you.

Jax: Well, let's try to keep it that way, shall we?

Skye: I will if you will.

Jax: Absolutely.

Skye: You know, I just -- I just realized something. I'm not afraid anymore. That nagging feeling that I was on the verge of losing the best thing I ever had -- it's -- it's gone. Vanished.

Jax: Good. Because we have all the time in the world.

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